Intimate Feelings

Well, My mind goes numb whenever I think about you deeply. So, I thought of looking at my situation in a new perspective. I just let you leave this world because I thought you would struggle more if U are there.. Was that a mistake because now I'm suffering to fill that void you've created in my life. Yes, people thought I dont love you because I didnt cry for you... but you and I know how much we love each other and I alone know how much tears I lost every night after you left. I sometimes feel guilty that even you thought I dont love you much because I was not much around you and didn't visit you whenever I could. Does writing like this make me feel any better... NO and YES because I'm crying and writing. Sometimes, I get angry on myself for forgetting that you are not here anymore... Above all this I have to take care of the person whom you loved most without showing how I feel inside. So, I'm basically messed up inside with a smile on the outside :) ...

I was just moving around the house and having a casual talk with my mother... Was soo happy I don't know why... and started holding her hand and looking deeply in to her eyes... Suddenly I remember that she is dead and her image started fading away... I asked her, "Mom, you are dead, how come you are here"... She held me tight and said "I wanted to tell you something......" And I shouted "what is it? What is it?".. I knew I'm out of my dream but I really want to listen what she was going to say next... I woke up from my dream to realize that I'm really shouting in the middle of the night and there were tears in my eyes... Same dream occurred twice but she never told what she wanted to... Miss You Mom !

I cheated him, saying that everything is fine Neither I can stop him or take care of him, I'm just in the same state as he is in... I cheated everyone, assuring that I can handle it I cheated my friends saying that I am fine Nothing was in my hands, she is going to leave us alone... I knew it very early but I had to keep it myself And cheat everybody that she is fine...

After I had to leave you alone, I started searching for a new companion.. Found a good looking & loving girl but had to break her heart, because you are still in my heart.. Came back from a far off place to live near you, but I had to watch you from a far off place... We've always met, but we have nothing to share... This time you left me and went of to a far off place... Slowly slowly you avoided me and I kept trying... Found out that you started moving on and this time it broke my heart... Wanted you to forget me totally and I had to hurt you... Now I'm left with an empty heart...

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                                       My first software review which I was asked to write for a job. RealPlayer has been around since 1995 and it can play music, videos and it can also be used for conversion of files. The more interesting option is, it can connect to facebook and play all the videos in your profile and videos you liked. Users having minimum system requirements can use this software with OS Windows XP and above versions. Music files can be simply dragged and added to the library or an entire disk or the whole computer can be scanned for music files and the files which are compatible will be uploaded to the library. The music files and videos will get separated automatically. The conversion can be done to make media files compatible on your mobile phones, MP3, Playsta...

It all started with an intuition of helping the needy. A friend of mine named Yeswanth started this group in Facebook called "Our Contribution To Our Country". We all supported his thoughts and ideas and joined as volunteers and at present we have 180 volunteers. You can check our blog at http://aacharana-nsp.blogspot.in/   It's been almost one year we started this organisation and we did a lot of events. This is also an experience about how selfish people are. We heard about a Fire accident at a nearby place and within two weeks we started collecting old clothes for the affected people. A group of 8 guys from our organisation begin our journey in search of the village. After a 3-4 hrs journey we found the place. As we were going through we noticed its in a very remote place and even heavy vehicles cannot enter the village. Its located near the sea, may be that is the reason fire spread rapidly because there's lots of wind and salt in the air. We felt sorrow seeing a...

Today,I wathced this movie " INCEPTION " .I got it from my friend who asked me what is the exact meaning of Inception,I said "I have no idea ! ".There started my real interest in this movie. So, while watching it occured to me that its exactly a projection of what happens to us (or some of us). Even one of my friend used to discuss about our dreams.Guess it happens with you too.You feel like you are falling from a very big height and suddenly you wake up after just few minutes from the time you have slept and you observe that your heart beats faster.Sometimes even in your dreams you recognise that you are dreaming but it takes time to wake up from that dream.The whole movie is based on this idea, very fascinating and I really loved it because I know all this happens in my dreams but never thought of writing a story on this or making a movie, but the director Christopher Nolan did.So, I was happily watching this movie till the end without giving any break.Even though...

WARNING : Content only for 18 years and above Its going to be a little controversial,but please remember that im not against the media or any person.Im just using my freedom of speech and democracy principle. I was going through a newspaper today and in the gossips page I came accross a report saying that Ronaldo son was rushed to a hospital due to an emergency.As soon as I saw it I said what the ****??? ,there are so many people out there whose children has emergency .Still I read the news because I am a hard core fan of Christiano Ronaldo. But the thing is its not the first time,there are so many news like this.A few examples like Aishwarya being suspected of having cancer,Prabhas and Kajal are together all the time...Even more worse is the scandals on the internet,a show on HBO(TMZ) specially about Hollywood stars spotted in the outside world. Come on even they are humans, Why are they being haunted by the media ? Dont the celebrities have personal life to live..It is true that ever...

After a loooong summer,suddenly when the sky looks dull... Cold breeze flows around you... Trees give a slight swinging movement... Even though you know that you cant see the sun, you still search for it like a lost puppy... even though you are in a traffic you can hear the silence of the sky... Guess then you are smelling the rain... and dont forget to smell the earth after it rains.. Nice Natural Fragrance which you would never like to miss...

Now i'm going to write about my most favourite festival... rather say the most liked event out of all happenings in IIT BOMBAY...that is TECHFEST .The Asia's largest technical festival and most reputed for itz large number of sponsorers.A newspaper article describes techfest like this "Techfest 2004, IIT Bombay's annual technology festival, is mounted on a scale that will make many global corporate events blush. The fact that it's being organized by students is perhaps the only thing that makes it a campus fest"... Even i worked in organising it in my both years of engineering and im proud enough to say that.. . I enjoyed working for it and the hapiness i get out of working for it is uncomparable out of all other things i worked for[i dont even know what i worked for so seriously ;)]... I put this festival in my own terms as a field where u r given some responsibilities and u get to know how to organise things.What to do when things go wrong and whom to co...

Those were my summer holidays.. most of the time we kids(7-8yrs back) used to play hide and seek or cricket... one day while playing hide and seek , i was in the position to catch others... i counted hundred as usually slipping half the numbers and turned back there was not even a single person on the road... i started searching on the other side of the road I could see a glimpse of a cute gal...she is small, cute and chubby... I thought she was one of the player and ran towards her...I was seeing her for the first time in my colony... a friend of mine came towards me and said "she is a new girl to the colony,she came wid her father who is on camp here for a month,she likes to play wid us"...then i asked that girl"whats ur name, bcoz we need it for the game atleast"..the girl said in a sweet little voice"Pavithra"... wow !!! I never heard such a sweet name... She wore chudidars most of the times and looked damn cute n irresistible... every boy in the game ...

Life is full of problems...when i face problems I feel like , I am being hit hard with some weird thing.. My heart starts beating fast as if i'm going to get heart attack.. Even taking breath through the nose becomes a problem.. I feel as if the whole world is pointing at me as a looser... When i see people discussing something i feel as if they are discussing about me... Can't even talk to people confidently... Cant even look into other's eyes... The ever smiling face of mine turns into a robotic face...

The time was 1:45 A.M.I was following a couple who were walking alone on that road..(b'coz that girl was looking beautiful frm back)...der was a T-Junction road.. they were goin left n i had to go right... so i was walkin on my road. da road was all clear.. ders only a dog on dat road at dat time... a few feets away from me.. suddenly it started roaring like a lion.Then i looked at it... a leopard came jumping onto da road from behind da trees to catch the dog... it was in dull golden color..with spots on it which r rarely visible... i was dumbstruck.. stood there looking at it b'coz i thought dat the second chance would be mine to die.... i juz thought dis is my last day in my life..at a point of time i even thought of running but i know how fast a leopard can run... it was roaring loud at the dog n was running behind it.. and dat to they were cuming towards me.. suddenly da leopard saw me n forgot even to catch the dog n went back into the trees...i was really confused and ...

It was 12 midnight and she is still vomiting from the past two hours and vomited evrything she took in.She was also having a severe stomach ache due to gastric pain..i didnt know what to do(i was in tenth)... seeing her in that situation i felt like crying as i couldnt do anything but if i start crying she would get more depressed,so i acted like i was normal.Whenever she was feeling like she is going to vomit i juz took her to da wash basin and made her vomit fully and cleaned her mouth.i gave her juices but still she vomited them also... Suddenly an idea got struck to me even in that pain.I called up my uncle who was in nightshift that day and told him that mom is having severe ache and vomiting and asked him to arrange for a jeep. A jeep came at that freaky night,we went to the city for a hospital.But the hospital is closed.So went to an another one.Appointed her in the hospital and they started giving her saline bottles and injections.I never saw my mom in that condition lying on ...

This's da first time i'm writing a blog rather say ABOUT ME... " u'll find this blog like an interactive one like say i'm telling my feelings through this ".the credit of creating this blog goes to my friend,who asked me to write and helped me to know myself. i shall b updating this whenever possible...