Intimate Feelings

Life is full of problems...when i face problems I feel like , I am being hit hard with some weird thing.. My heart starts beating fast as if i'm going to get heart attack.. Even taking breath through the nose becomes a problem.. I feel as if the whole world is pointing at me as a looser... When i see people discussing something i feel as if they are discussing about me... Can't even talk to people confidently... Cant even look into other's eyes... The ever smiling face of mine turns into a robotic face...

The time was 1:45 A.M.I was following a couple who were walking alone on that road..(b'coz that girl was looking beautiful frm back)...der was a T-Junction road.. they were goin left n i had to go right... so i was walkin on my road. da road was all clear.. ders only a dog on dat road at dat time... a few feets away from me.. suddenly it started roaring like a lion.Then i looked at it... a leopard came jumping onto da road from behind da trees to catch the dog... it was in dull golden color..with spots on it which r rarely visible... i was dumbstruck.. stood there looking at it b'coz i thought dat the second chance would be mine to die.... i juz thought dis is my last day in my life..at a point of time i even thought of running but i know how fast a leopard can run... it was roaring loud at the dog n was running behind it.. and dat to they were cuming towards me.. suddenly da leopard saw me n forgot even to catch the dog n went back into the trees...i was really confused and ...

It was 12 midnight and she is still vomiting from the past two hours and vomited evrything she took in.She was also having a severe stomach ache due to gastric pain..i didnt know what to do(i was in tenth)... seeing her in that situation i felt like crying as i couldnt do anything but if i start crying she would get more depressed,so i acted like i was normal.Whenever she was feeling like she is going to vomit i juz took her to da wash basin and made her vomit fully and cleaned her mouth.i gave her juices but still she vomited them also... Suddenly an idea got struck to me even in that pain.I called up my uncle who was in nightshift that day and told him that mom is having severe ache and vomiting and asked him to arrange for a jeep. A jeep came at that freaky night,we went to the city for a hospital.But the hospital is closed.So went to an another one.Appointed her in the hospital and they started giving her saline bottles and injections.I never saw my mom in that condition lying on ...

This's da first time i'm writing a blog rather say ABOUT ME... " u'll find this blog like an interactive one like say i'm telling my feelings through this ".the credit of creating this blog goes to my friend,who asked me to write and helped me to know myself. i shall b updating this whenever possible...